The Escape

I put a smile on my lips,
As tears start to take shape.
Isolating myself from the pain,
Finding my great escape.

I walk around school,
Putting my head high.
Acting like I’m fine,
I just release a heavy sigh .

Avenge the pain by faking smile,
They always treat me as a vile.
Sitting alone in this lonely aisle,
Keeping my hopes up even for a while.

Calling me those pity names,
Playing at me all your silly games.
Laughing at me with my bruises,
They don’t know how it breaks my heart in pieces.

I don’t have a dad to protect me
So all they did is to scold me
Now that you’re happy,
Would you leave me, peacefully?

Finding my comfort in the dark,
Seeing those painful mark.
Never seen any light,
Fighting this madness every night.

I thought I was free,
Seeing this chains around me.
I'm blind, I can't see.
This is not me.

I feel like ending everything,
Ending this pain into nothing.
This one sharp blade that I'm seeing,
Is the escape that I'm waiting.

Hear Me

Sinking in an abrasive pool of pain,
Washing all my doubts in the rain.
Living in fantasy of lies,
Lying in front of my very eyes.

Will you stop talking,
and start listening?
Will you stop hurting,
and start loving?

Drowning in someone else's darkness,
My light is just useless.
My heart is so hopeless,
Full of sadness and loneliness.

Heart that near it's bound,
Beating but there's no sound.
Crying with no tears,
Hiding through the years.

Will someone hear my call?
Will someone catch me if I fall?
Will someone wipe my tears,
and wash away my fears?

Pain conceals with a perfect smile,
Truth that covers with many lies.
Eyes that looking without spark,
Soul that isolated in the dark.

Will someone save me without return?
Bringing me out in my comfort zone.
Will someone sees me without disgust?
And love me to be his last?